I have been hiding out at Mom and Dad's a lot lately simply because I don't want to deal. I don't want to deal with the fact that we are losing our place in 3 weeks. I don't want to deal with watching Ben not caring that we literally blown through our savings and now I cannot go back to school this fall. I cannot deal with the fact that I'm feeling resentful and bitter, and want nothing to do with life for awhile. I go to Mom and Dad's and I get sympathy, and I feel like a failure. I hate asking for help.

I have a couple of phone calls to make tomorrow as a last attempt for a possible job in NC, then it's packing up our lives in boxes and living with the parents for a couple months.